I'm back from Cali, and I came home to find out that my stupid fucking sister had been stealing money from her job, weekly, out of the bank deposits. Can you imagine how ashamed, appalled and furious my entire family was? She had just gotten PROMOTED to general manager of that store and that was her gratitude I suppose. Well this morning my mom told her to pack her suitcase and get the fuck out. She has like 48 hours to get all of her shit out. This means that
I'll be a lot less stressed
I'm worried sick about what's going to happen to her though.
I'm soon going to have the two rooms I was promised when we moved here.
My mom FINALLY did what everyone in our family wanted her to do, and what she needed to do.
My mom just got off the phone with my sister's dad, after telling him about her losing her job and why she really kicked Megan out. He deserves to know because he now gets to put up with her shit. Honestly, Megan and her dad deserve eachother. He abused my mom and it haunts her till this day. All I hope is that over the next week, I can move downstairs, and things can calm down before I leave for my internship, and before my parent's 20th anniversary. All in all I'm happy my sister is gone but still, she is my sister and I hope that she'll be okay in the long run. I love her, but I hate her at the same time.
I'd forgotten the man, the music that keeps me alive. But when to take that moment to listen to your old favorite, you remember what it feels like to have a connection with music. A connection that revives and helps you to empty the shit out of your mind. I've missed you oh so much Brian Hugh Warner.
Sorry I haven't updated in a good while. I just haven't felt the need. I've spent most of my days with Jeremy, and when I'm not with him, I'm usually at home. If anyone wants to hang out, just give me a call.
Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well. You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return.
we're now up here alone terror on the intercom can someone save us systems malfunction blast it this damn machine over and out captain something lurks creeps on the counter top somewhere behind you parasitic cyst i can't stand to watch it's coming up and out of your chest
remember when we were young sit up right on the table a photograph of earth feeding me a way back frightened i tear alone or maybe not the the only one there hello... hello when it rings will you answer? there corner tall short stance it's you come on kill me!!
you made a good friend to me but while you were outnumbered and torn you made us do things oh dear god, i don't feel alive when you're cut short of misery will you pray it be the end? give a look surprised wide eyes to me then you'll know just what i am the scare that triggers your fear come know me in a different light now, come know me as god
you made a good friend to me but while you were outnumbered and torn you made us do things to you
run sand hourglass its my time will i be worth? spin 'round carousel when your horse isn't screwed in
oh dear god, i don't feel alive when you're cut short of misery (raise forth lost cause) will you pray it be the end? give a look surprised wide eyes to me (raise forth lost cause) then you'll know just what i am (subtle demise the legitimate cry) the scare that triggers your fear come know me in a different light now come know me as god (raise forth lost cause)
That song is by Coheed and Cambria and it just made me start balling. As I read through the lyrics, while listening to the song...good god. That line I have in bold and all is what made me cry. that is exactly how I feel lately. My body is being lucifer's bitch again today. I try everything I know to prevent this shit...but I'm constantly losing to my internal organs. I don't know what's up, I just barely feel alive anymore. I hate this emptiness inside me. I've lost some part of me that I can't find.
I have the best news EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! At least to me. On July 18th, 2006, Ministry is coming to Birmingham. Joey Jordison will be playing drums for them. And until today I thought I was going to be out in CA on the 18th. I have been heartbroken. Until 5 minutes ago. I get back from CA 2-4 days before the show. I just found that out and all my hopes have been renewed. Bitches, I am going to meet my fuckin hero. I'm going to be front and center. I will meet Joey Jordison. The 5ft 3" drumming god. The man behind Slipknot, and the Murderdolls. The man behind the music that keeps me going. The boy with crystal blue eyes and a beautiful mind.
You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.
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